Why me?
I had to ask myself that very question several times today. And I have to admit that I've had to do some real soul searching. Alls I wanted was a blog like everyone else. I wanted to be one of the boys. I wanted to feel justified when I rented videos from the foreign film section, because I would know that my readers were depending on me for profundity.
But was it worth it?
Sure. I got lots of hits. Over 200 yesterday.
Sure. I had readers on five continents.
But was it really worth it?
A lot of people were angry. They called me things. Even I called me things. That's how ugly it got.
But I'm still left with the question of why? I went back through my posts today to read them. Did I do anything different than what is on every other blog out there? Do I need to take myself more seriously?
Here. I'll try-
Today I listened to an Eric Clapton CD and then a Taj Mahal CD. I had an oreo. Okay I had a couple because someone left the bag sitting in front of me. But I only meant to have one. I forgot to mention that they were double stuff oreos. So I really shouldn't have done that.
There. Now will that make them angry or will they accept me as one of the gang?
Ben,
It is one thing to make fun of blogging in general. You may go right ahead. Your feeling must have been hurt by some of the things that were recently said about your pastor. Understandable. However, it is quite another thing to single out and attack a Christian brother for no apparent reason. Josh took a firm stand IN DEFENSE of Pastor Wilson. On top of that, he admonished others for saying things online that they would not say to a persons face. Ironic isn't it?
Out of all the people that you could have picked on, you chose someone who is technically on 'your side.' I can only think that this must be due to a personal vendatta that you have against him. These affairs ought not to be settled electronically. If he has wronged you, you must let him know. Are you not man enough for this? He is man enough to write you and ask what the problem is. Go reconcile this and put it to rest. It's not easy to do, I know, but you will keep a brother instead of gaining an enemy. Which would you prefer?
I've recieved some ... ununderstanding comments myself, but no biggie. :) it's your blog. as long as ur not dishonouring God, say w/e u want, right? join teh gang--not every1 is a kewl blogger, but not every1 has to be like me. :P ok, j/k ;-) keep it up man, it's all g00d, it all flows, it all goes. nothing g00d comes xcept by tears and prayers, by scars and circumcision--such is teh postlapsarian world. c'est la vie.
Posted by: berek at October 10, 2003 08:48 PMI think it's fun to watch grown men make asses of themselves. Sideways smiley face. Just pass 'em another oreo and maybe they'll stop with all the racket.
Posted by: LaughIn at October 11, 2003 07:40 AMMr. Merkle -
I know, I shouldn't have left the Oreos out, especially at the end of finals week when y'all were already near the breaking point. And double stuffed, what was I thinking? :)
P.S. Even if the guys don't accept you as one of the gang, even if they continue to belittle and jab at you, never let your self-esteem be squelched. Don't let yourself be consumed by doubts and fears! Just repeat to yourself, over and over, 'sticks and stones, sticks and stones, sticks and stones.' Gather friends and sing it in a round. You'll feel right as rain.
P.P.S. Don't get Mr. Wilson the younger, he is far too bitter and cynical to sing.
P.P.P.S. Y'all are fantastic teachers, I love it here.
P.P.P.P.S. The 'y'all' I picked up from the Southern contingent of my class, who insist its proper grammar, the ignoramuses!
5P.S. I've been inspired. And to think, I'd never heard of blogging!
Kate
It's great that you love what is being taught there. But you can also personally help to teach your teachers (certain ones) that they hurt their own cause by letting the outside world see their very sloppy efforts at trying to fulfill their god-given role at pointing out other's errors. Nate and Benjamin would do well to put themselves under the tutelage of a mentor like Mr. Leithart to learn character development.
Fred,
Thank you for the advice. I actually have been trying, but they can be so muleheaded.(Mr. Merkle, if you're reading this, I'm not really talking about you, so don't flunk me. I'm talking about your distant cousin Kevin.) I even brought Mr. Merkle oreos, so that he would have sweetness rather than bitterness in his mouth. But its no use. They persist in blogging. And what's more, in teaching. What more can I do? Do you have any ideas? I'm starting to lose heart.
I didn't understand the *ahem* next to your tree comments concerning the teachers, would you mind explaining? But you're right, they are so immature sometimes.
Posted by: Kate at October 20, 2003 06:12 PMSarcasm rich environment. Teacher to pupil.
Posted by: GeezLouis at October 21, 2003 12:52 PMI'm not nearly as clever as Mr. Merkle, but thank you. :) Its only in the best of spirits.
Posted by: Kate at October 21, 2003 01:20 PMMr. Merkle,
Greetings from the UK! I just came across your blog a few moments ago. You might remember me, we met when you visited ETCW earlier on in the year (I was with Rafal, if you remember him).
Hi Mr. Merkle. I was wondering where this blog was. :)
Posted by: Daniel Foucachon at April 25, 2006 09:15 PM